I've been saying this in my head for the last 11 months. Before I get into my first 3 months of DNRS, I want to let you know that this is not my first attempt at DNRS. I bought the DVDs off ebay for $100 in February of last year (2020). I was SO EXCITED to dive in. After the first day I noticed HUGE CHANGES for the better. My husband and I took his grandma for a walk around the neighborhood, it was a chilly night and one of our neighbors always has their wood burning fireplace going, that night was no exception. My body usually reacts hard to smoke, I'm just used to it at this point. But, that night on the walk, I could smell the smokey air and my body had no reaction! It was incredible! The next day we went shopping and a women near us was wearing very strong perfume, I could smell it and, again... no reaction! I hadn't smelled perfume in years without a full on breakdown happening within my body where I would have to fight to keep a train of thought and not puke among many other symptoms. I felt hope for the first time.

COVID-19 hit and it was an election year full of chaos. You'd think being on the other side of the world would insulate me from the election year drama in the US but with social media, there's no escaping. I took a social media break. But, when I returned, nothing had changed. I thought about deleting social media but I like to see what my friends and family far away are up to as well as find inspiration through creative design accounts, etc. I thought about unfriending people but that felt petty. So, I sank. I sank into a pit and did my rounds less and less. And, eventually stopped full rounds altogether.

August of 2020, a woman named Robyn posted in an MCS group I was in on Facebook asking people why they weren't doing DNRS, didn't they want to get better instead of sitting around complaining? I read the backlash of pissed off people. "How dare she!" But, I knew she was right. Staying in that group and avoiding my rounds was only harming myself more. But, I had a mountain of resistance toward doing my rounds. I felt my limbs frozen in mud when I thought of going to my meditation space to do a full round. I was fine with the tiny partial rounds that I would do in my head whenever exposed. I actually never stopped doing those but, when it came to the full rounds, where the magic really happens, I was dead in the water.

I decided to challenge myself with 2 rules for this redesign:

1. Choose the first book that pops up
2. Choose the first stock photo that pops up

It's just too bad they build projects like this with cheap materials and shoddy craftsmanship. Because they actually could be really cool attractions if they weren't so dangerous.